why..

Why must this happen to me? Sigh. Really be careful about what you do in this life because it may affect you. Right now I know what I need to do for sure and I can't believe what is happening, really can't..Soon it'll all be better and life will be good. Just need to get rid of this problem.

The right thing

I am really thinking about how I went to a psychic today at the renaissance fair lol, and also this movie I watched. They were talking about how vengeance is not the route to go. It is about doing what is right and being the better person. That movie was great and I really think that it helped me along with the psychic. The psychic was actually really accurate which is awesome. And, it just really made me think about what is at hand and which route I want to take. I have so much stress in my life and I can't wait until it dissipates. I am even taking college courses this semester to keep myself busy. I think I should just let go of this and move on.

Cancellations

So I had to cancel my flight to Pa to take care of somethings here as far as the divorce and all. Right now it is just so stressful, and he lied to me. He put down on the divorce papers that it is my fault and unhealthy to live with me. lol really like to know how that is haha. I told him I wouldn't sign it so he wasted all his money for nothing! hahaha what an idiot. Now he is going to take the hit and amend/withdraw the papers for the divorce, before time runs out. He better send me a document stating that it was withdrawn. Yesterday was a superstressful day with that I couldn't evenbelieve it and I was thinkinghow it would delay me going into the militaryandeverything. Ahh my keyboard is all messed up, i have to press onthespace bar superhard for it to separate words . so ya i just hope out everything works out inmy favor haha and that i'm a naval officer. I also need to re-schedulemy doc appt AGAINhaha. And Ineed to find out about mybenefits as in health benefits once i'm single againlol. Can'ty wait to be singleagain andfree:)

Single

So looks like today I am going to be signing the paperwork. I am excited and disappointed all at the same time. It's pretty disappointing that I put my all into this marriage and now it's gone. But, at the same time I am so glad to be done with him. He was horrible, abusive, and a liar. He is taking the hit for the divorce and he should because he is a piece of crap. He tried to blame me for it and tell me I'm the psycho, and sure maybe i did somethings that were wrong, but in the end a guy should NEVER hit a girl. There is something not right in his head that he thinks he can justify him putting his hands around my arms, him grabbing me by the throat. Ladies, no matter what if a guy EVER touches you LEAVE. Anyway, this will be the start of the process and then I can leave for the navy a single chick:)

Navy girl lindsay

So this future wave is working on becoming an officer in the navy. theExam is sohard, i took it once and it was awful. Only reason i missed it was because the study guide was totally different from the exam. so now i get to take it again. i barely passed the other parts so i am super worried to say the least! how is everyone out there? ihope to make lots of friends. This is my journey, my start into the navy,leaving my old life behind. Never cared much for civillian life.All Icansay is i have BIG plans, enlisted or officerHUGE PLANS.