Happy b-day navy!!!!!

Happy birthday to the NAVY!!!!! The NAVY has given me a bright future and without them it would be gloomy!!!

NAVY update

So looks like I'll be getting the October board don't know why they told me different lol. Oh well everything is looking good so yes.:) My recruiter was supposed to get a change of name sheet but she never got it grr but oh well. And I need to find out if I need anything for my marriage situation. But he and I are getting divorced thank God! He's happy I'm happy so it's a mutual happy thing! I'm just really hoping the officer packet is good to go and that I get selected as officer. I feel mixed, many people believe in me but at the same time I know it will be very competitive so I don't know...So stressed haha.

UPDATE

Sooo now it looks like I may have to wait until November boards if the internet does not get hooked up soon enough in the navy offices. Go IT people go! lol. I really want October boards, but if I have to wait until November you know what it's not the end of the world. Because, I am very confident I will get chosen for the Officer program. What else? Hmm I am just waiting for the office to get set up so i can hear about my packet if everything is good to go. I really hope they remember to figure out my cumulative gpa. I also need to finish my italian homework. LOL oops. And, I'm supposed to be going out later. Ahhh life is going by so fast! It is already mid-september and almost now october. So, also knowing a commander in the navy i believe is helping me very much. Well take care everyone

Waiting

Waiting for a phone call from my recruiters to make sure my officer packet is set. But, ya still haven't gotten a call and my packet is going in on the 16th:( :( whyyyy!

Feeling ok

So looking at my current life of working out, studying for classes, babysitting, and preparing for the navy, i am thinking wow how time flies by! I just wish so much that time would fly even more and I find out I am accepted as an officer lol. I am bit worried I won't be accepted but at the same time I know that in the enlisted realm I'll come out on top in the end money wise lol. Enlisted will prepare me for the civillian realm but officer will prepare me for the military realm. I really want officer for several reasons and if i didn't have a 400 word limit i'd write way more!

I passed:)

SO I passed the Naval exam so now looking forward to becoming a naval officer. freaken exciteddd:)

Life

So I'm thinking about things I need to do. Such as finish The Hobbit. I would have really liked to underline The Hobbit since books should be underlined but w/e. lol. Anyway, what else? I am going to take my officer exam tuesday, I am super worried about that...I leave tomorrow for Albany and stay at my sister's overnight. I just..Idk..I'm just super worried about it all...It seems so hard to become an officer..My gpa is kind of low, my SATS were low, but my gpa is only low because it was only a year. When they figure out my cumulative it will be much higher! Def. a 3.0 or higher I am 100% certain.:) So I am just waiting and cannot wait to get it over with but I know I will get test anxiety since you can only take the exam three times in your life and I already used up my one time. My recruiter is hinting that he doesn't think I'll get it but I can always try again for Officer. Keep re-submitting my package every damn month until I get it. And, if fate exists maybe me failing it the first time worked out because now I have a ref. from an assemblyman, and also a senator. I am thrilled about that and they wrote such wonderful things about me!
In other news I need to change my phone number asap because someone I don't like(ahem blast from the past) will most likely message me sending me hate messages and I honestly don't want to hear it. I jut want that annoyance out of my life. I am just so stressed about everything. Getting that "thing" out of my life, moving forward, and becoming an officer. Plus doing well in my courses this semester. Just too muchhh going on lol. Wish me luck on my future endeavors. Oh sigh I also need to work on my Motivational Statement. I did a bit today.:) So we'll see how things go..And, I'll have my mom look it over tomorrow for me since everyone went all douche bag on me today. Like Steve was supposed to read it but he's acting revengeful since I wasn't interested in him in the past because he was being weird now he has taking it out on me, gay much? And, Rish will look it over soon hopefully. Rish is a blast from the past. Rish is everything I wanted in a guy except one thing. He did not give me the attention I need. I love texting/iming/talking to the guy I like and Rish just didn't do that. He would talk to me a couple times a week and I was like why? He said that if we lived closer he would have seen me more often. Hmm but anyway Rish and I are just friends now, I decided that. Honestly, it is just nice having friends, not dating. I haven't been in a relationship since my marriage and I am content with that because I am focusing on me. All I do with my life is go to school, study, and hang out with friends if I have time lol. I guess to some it sounds uneventful but it's the way I like it..Keeping busy.Sigh I shall let you know how I do on the exam journal and whomever reads this. Wish me luck or corragio!! Or however the hell you spell it haha. Corragio means courage/bravery in italian. In Italy they do not wish you luck, they wish you courage! Haha I like that! WIsh me corragio!<3

why..

Why must this happen to me? Sigh. Really be careful about what you do in this life because it may affect you. Right now I know what I need to do for sure and I can't believe what is happening, really can't..Soon it'll all be better and life will be good. Just need to get rid of this problem.

The right thing

I am really thinking about how I went to a psychic today at the renaissance fair lol, and also this movie I watched. They were talking about how vengeance is not the route to go. It is about doing what is right and being the better person. That movie was great and I really think that it helped me along with the psychic. The psychic was actually really accurate which is awesome. And, it just really made me think about what is at hand and which route I want to take. I have so much stress in my life and I can't wait until it dissipates. I am even taking college courses this semester to keep myself busy. I think I should just let go of this and move on.

Cancellations

So I had to cancel my flight to Pa to take care of somethings here as far as the divorce and all. Right now it is just so stressful, and he lied to me. He put down on the divorce papers that it is my fault and unhealthy to live with me. lol really like to know how that is haha. I told him I wouldn't sign it so he wasted all his money for nothing! hahaha what an idiot. Now he is going to take the hit and amend/withdraw the papers for the divorce, before time runs out. He better send me a document stating that it was withdrawn. Yesterday was a superstressful day with that I couldn't evenbelieve it and I was thinkinghow it would delay me going into the militaryandeverything. Ahh my keyboard is all messed up, i have to press onthespace bar superhard for it to separate words . so ya i just hope out everything works out inmy favor haha and that i'm a naval officer. I also need to re-schedulemy doc appt AGAINhaha. And Ineed to find out about mybenefits as in health benefits once i'm single againlol. Can'ty wait to be singleagain andfree:)

Single

So looks like today I am going to be signing the paperwork. I am excited and disappointed all at the same time. It's pretty disappointing that I put my all into this marriage and now it's gone. But, at the same time I am so glad to be done with him. He was horrible, abusive, and a liar. He is taking the hit for the divorce and he should because he is a piece of crap. He tried to blame me for it and tell me I'm the psycho, and sure maybe i did somethings that were wrong, but in the end a guy should NEVER hit a girl. There is something not right in his head that he thinks he can justify him putting his hands around my arms, him grabbing me by the throat. Ladies, no matter what if a guy EVER touches you LEAVE. Anyway, this will be the start of the process and then I can leave for the navy a single chick:)

Navy girl lindsay

So this future wave is working on becoming an officer in the navy. theExam is sohard, i took it once and it was awful. Only reason i missed it was because the study guide was totally different from the exam. so now i get to take it again. i barely passed the other parts so i am super worried to say the least! how is everyone out there? ihope to make lots of friends. This is my journey, my start into the navy,leaving my old life behind. Never cared much for civillian life.All Icansay is i have BIG plans, enlisted or officerHUGE PLANS.