Life

So I'm thinking about things I need to do. Such as finish The Hobbit. I would have really liked to underline The Hobbit since books should be underlined but w/e. lol. Anyway, what else? I am going to take my officer exam tuesday, I am super worried about that...I leave tomorrow for Albany and stay at my sister's overnight. I just..Idk..I'm just super worried about it all...It seems so hard to become an officer..My gpa is kind of low, my SATS were low, but my gpa is only low because it was only a year. When they figure out my cumulative it will be much higher! Def. a 3.0 or higher I am 100% certain.:) So I am just waiting and cannot wait to get it over with but I know I will get test anxiety since you can only take the exam three times in your life and I already used up my one time. My recruiter is hinting that he doesn't think I'll get it but I can always try again for Officer. Keep re-submitting my package every damn month until I get it. And, if fate exists maybe me failing it the first time worked out because now I have a ref. from an assemblyman, and also a senator. I am thrilled about that and they wrote such wonderful things about me!
In other news I need to change my phone number asap because someone I don't like(ahem blast from the past) will most likely message me sending me hate messages and I honestly don't want to hear it. I jut want that annoyance out of my life. I am just so stressed about everything. Getting that "thing" out of my life, moving forward, and becoming an officer. Plus doing well in my courses this semester. Just too muchhh going on lol. Wish me luck on my future endeavors. Oh sigh I also need to work on my Motivational Statement. I did a bit today.:) So we'll see how things go..And, I'll have my mom look it over tomorrow for me since everyone went all douche bag on me today. Like Steve was supposed to read it but he's acting revengeful since I wasn't interested in him in the past because he was being weird now he has taking it out on me, gay much? And, Rish will look it over soon hopefully. Rish is a blast from the past. Rish is everything I wanted in a guy except one thing. He did not give me the attention I need. I love texting/iming/talking to the guy I like and Rish just didn't do that. He would talk to me a couple times a week and I was like why? He said that if we lived closer he would have seen me more often. Hmm but anyway Rish and I are just friends now, I decided that. Honestly, it is just nice having friends, not dating. I haven't been in a relationship since my marriage and I am content with that because I am focusing on me. All I do with my life is go to school, study, and hang out with friends if I have time lol. I guess to some it sounds uneventful but it's the way I like it..Keeping busy.Sigh I shall let you know how I do on the exam journal and whomever reads this. Wish me luck or corragio!! Or however the hell you spell it haha. Corragio means courage/bravery in italian. In Italy they do not wish you luck, they wish you courage! Haha I like that! WIsh me corragio!<3